Monday, July 20, 2009

It's been 2 years since we've known each other. Today is the 2nd year of the day we first met as friends. The way we got about to know each other still remains vivd in my mind. As though it had just happened. Well, it wasn't exactly the first time we saw each other. But, it was the first time we saw each other as "friend". haha.. Things were alittle different. Just that little bit.

I've no idea how things progressed and why it progressed in the way it did, but it did. It's really weird. Somehow, I just felt myself draw closer and closer to you. And gradually, I found myself giggling(this expression sounds gay, yeah. haha) to myself over the msgs that you sent (though they don't seem all so funny now), thinking about how I'd see you again, and being just so overly concerned and worried about you. These were before the bombshell was dropped...

After that, I noticed myself struggling internally, trying to convince myself that it wasn't wrong being "overly" (this is subjective) nice to you. That, whatever I was doing wasn't exactly morally incorrect. I was also struggling to figure out if the feeling's mutal, or was it just on my part. This, I never really figured out. Even up till now.

All I really wished I've got the courage to tell you is that "I adore you". I never really got about to saying that. Though I reckon there were aplenty of opportunities that this would have happened. I guess whenever we were alone together, I'm filled with so much happiness and peace, I (sortta) took it for granted. Only to realise that I should have told you how I felt about you and us.

I guess its too late now. And, I think it's time too for me to move on with my life.. I've been holding onto this for too long now. 2 years was a really long time.. I really treasured those times we spent together, those little things we did together, you did for me and perhaps what I did for you.

I don't think I'll ever forget this period of my time. And there'll always be this place deep down for you, my dear friend. Wishing you all the best!

P/S: How I wish our ending would be as such... But it's all too late now..